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  Siren in Waiting

  Texas Sirens, Book 5

  Lexi Blake

  writing as

  Sophie Oak

  Siren Enslaved

  Texas Sirens Book 3

  Published by DLZ Entertainment LLC

  Copyright 2018 DLZ Entertainment LLC

  Edited by Chloe Vale

  ISBN: 978-1-937608-90-3

  All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, scanned, or distributed in any printed or electronic form without permission. Please do not participate in or encourage piracy of copyrighted materials in violation of the author’s rights.

  This is a work of fiction. Names, places, characters and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination and are fictitious. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or establishments is solely coincidental.

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  Table of Contents

  Dedication

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Author’s Note

  Siren in Bloom, Coming Soon

  Lost in Bliss, Coming Soon

  About Lexi Blake

  Other Books by Lexi Blake

  Dedication

  For my husband – who understands a little about the addictive personality since he has to live with me. As always, thanks to everyone who makes my life work – Chloe Vale, Shayla Black, Kris Cook, my mom and kids.

  Dedication 2018

  As I went through this book again, I realized Trev is the first time I had the courage to write an addict as a hero. Since then I’ve done it several times, but Trev still holds a place in my heart. Over the course of my life, I’ve been lucky enough to have had relationships with a couple of remarkable men. One was my college boyfriend. He formed the core of Trev, the idea of a golden boy who fell and had the heart and soul to pick himself back up, to find a way to be kind, to have seen the dark core of himself and still have faith.

  This book is for everyone who lives one day at a time, for everyone who stumbles and falls and picks themselves back up.

  This one is for Kevin.

  Prologue

  San Antonio, Texas

  Trevor McNamara looked around the office he found himself in. Found was the right word since he definitely hadn’t meant to be here. It was a pristinely kept workspace, neat and pin perfect, much like the man who sat behind the opulent desk—a man Trev was sure had to be joking. “I’m sorry. What did you say?”

  The general manager of the San Antonio Bandits leaned forward. There was a slightly sympathetic look on Curt Goff’s face as he steepled his hands together. “You’re fired, Trevor.”

  “You can’t fire me.” His brain was still trying to process those two words that threatened to end his football career.

  The words didn’t end your career, idiot. You did that when you started in on the coke. The booze wasn’t enough, was it? You just had to go for more.

  “I think you’ll find I can,” Curt said, his voice sure. “In your contract, there’s a clause that states plainly if you flunk three drug tests in a row, I can fire you.”

  Trev’s head pounded. How had he flunked the last drug test? He’d paid the tech off to switch the results. Or he’d had his assistant pay the fucker off. Had he forgotten? Panic threatened to swamp him. He couldn’t get fired. He had bills to pay. Lots of fucking bills. “I’ll call my union rep.”

  Curt nodded as though this move had been anticipated and potentially blocked. Once upon a time, Goff had been the San Antonio Bandits’ quarterback, but he’d retired a few years back and now ran the front office. Everyone in the business considered the man a shark. “I assumed as much. I think you’ll find the contract is ironclad. It’s possible the union will sue for you, but I intend to go to court and I’ll make that plain. I won’t settle. I’ve talked to Frank, and we’ve decided that we’ll spend what it takes in order to enforce your contract.”

  His stomach turned over a couple of times, and he wondered if the contents of his last meal weren’t about to come back up. Frank Boyle was the owner of the team. He owed Trev ten million dollars on the last year of his contract. A protracted legal fight could cost Frank much more. Why would he do that? How could this be happening?

  “It’s happening because you can’t control yourself, Trevor.” Curt’s eyes pinned him.

  Damn, he was far gone. He hadn’t even realized he’d said the words out loud.

  “I’m going to call my agent.” He pulled out his phone and glanced down at the screen. Fifteen messages. “You’re going to have to deal with my agent. He won’t put up with this shit. You can’t treat me this way.”

  Curt’s face hardened. Trev had heard rumors about the man. He was into some strange shit. Supposedly he tied up his wife and spanked her on a regular basis. Of course, there were other rumors about his perpetual houseguests. Two of the veterans on the team lived at Curt and Tess Goff’s multimillion dollar compound and had for years. Pervert.

  “I think you’re going to find out that your agent quit after this morning’s headlines.” Curt’s words fell in the silence with all the subtlety of a buzzsaw.

  Bile crept into his throat. Headlines? He didn’t remember much about the night before. He’d gone out with some friends. Friends. He didn’t have friends. He had people who hung around because he paid for shit. He’d woken up in bed next to some bleach blonde with fake tits this morning. He didn’t remember her name. She could definitely be a stripper. Shit. What had he done?

  He hadn’t gotten arrested. He would remember that. Fuck, when had he started to think a night when he didn’t get caught was a win? “Bullshit. Marty wouldn’t dump me.”

  “No. Not bullshit. Marty has moved on to greener pastures. I informed him this morning that we would be using the clause in your contract to release you. The Internet is already full of stories about what you did last night at a strip club. It wasn’t a particularly upscale one, hence the fact that they have photos. There’s a good one of you doing lines of cocaine off a stripper’s body. It’s not the image this club wants or needs. You tested positive for cocaine and marijuana. We didn’t run a test for alcohol, or you might have broken the equipment. Can you honestly tell me you’re not drunk right now?”

  He’d only had a couple. Or three. It was the only way to deal with the hangover. It didn’t matter. He hadn’t driven himself anyway. He had a driver. Yeah, he wasn’t going to be able to pay the driver anymore. “I’ll go to rehab. I can be out in three weeks and ready for the season.”

  He hated the whine in his voice. He hated rehab. It didn’t work. He’d be fine for a week or two, and then the need for a drink would call to him again. The pressure would build, and he would have to have that first drink. It never ended with one. It ended in bottles, and when the alcohol stopped working, he moved on to the harder stuff. Just last night, he’d thought about sticking a needle in his arm to s
ee how high he could get.

  God, he was going to kill himself.

  “You’ve been three times, and it hasn’t worked. I don’t think conventional rehab works on someone like you.” Curt’s voice had softened slightly.

  He didn’t have any money. He’d spent it all on the house, the cars, and the parties. The drugs. He’d spent so much on drugs. He owed more than he had. How had it all gone to shit?

  “Trev, I have an offer to make you. You know my wife is a therapist, right?”

  Curt’s wife was a pretty blonde named Tess. She’d run a few team-building exercises in the three years Trev had played for the Bandits. She was some sort of best-selling author. He remembered how Curt’s eyes had lit up when she walked in and started talking. Of course, Mike Cabrerra’s and Kevin Best’s eyes had lit up, too. How did that work?

  Trev had never looked at a woman the way those three men looked at Tess. What would it feel like to love a woman so much he was willing to share her?

  “Yeah. You think she can fix me?” He laughed as he asked the question.

  Trev doubted it. A strange sense of fatalism fell over him. It was done. His career was over, and now he could find a bottle and never stop. It was where he’d been headed since that first beer. He’d been on a path, and now he could follow it without the pesky frustrations of having a career. He could focus on what was important. Liquor had always been more important than football or family or any girl. When he’d been in high school, his so-called friends would put beer after beer in his hands. In college he’d discovered whiskey. When he’d gotten to the pros, he’d found even harder stuff.

  For some strange reason, he remembered an old friend from high school named Bo O’Malley. Bo had been a freshman when Trev was a senior. Bo had been a scrawny kid at the time. He’d tried so hard to make the football team that Trev had taken the kid under his wing. For a brief period of time, he’d felt like someone needed him for something other than his throwing arm. Trev remembered Bo was funny, and when he’d hung out with Bo, he hadn’t felt the need to drink.

  He’d dumped Bo when he went off to college. He hadn’t needed a puppy-like high school kid hanging around no matter how much he behaved like a brother.

  He sincerely hoped Bo was doing better than he was.

  Curt’s voice drew Trev back to reality. “She doesn’t do this type of work, but she’s come up with a plan. You might think it’s a bit radical. Here’s the deal. I hired a psychologist. He’s worked with men with impulse-control issues. He works in an odd place, though. It’s a BDSM club.”

  Trev threw back his head and laughed. “That is a brilliant plan. Put the addict in a club.”

  Curt’s expression could have been cut from granite. “I assure you, you won’t be allowed to drink in this club. The owner has agreed to take you under his wing and teach you a thing or two about control. His methods are far from standard, but I believe they will work for you.”

  “I’m not going to go to some club and let some asshole I don’t know talk me to death.” There was no way. He was going to fight this. Marty hadn’t really dropped him. There was still time. His QB rating had tanked toward the end of last year, but he was young. Everyone needed a quarterback.

  “If you go through the treatment and remain sober for three years, you will receive the rest of your contract.”

  Trev felt his eyes widen. Ten million dollars. For staying sober. Hell, he probably couldn’t do it for all the money in the world.

  Something inside him was broken. He was deeply flawed. He wasn’t sure how or why it had happened. His father had loved him. He’d died far too young, but Paul McNamara had loved his family. His mother and sister had loved him.

  He was the problem and he always had been.

  “Why the hell would you do that for me?” The words felt heavy in his mouth. A weariness had invaded his bones, making him feel so much older than his twenty-six years. He was twenty-six, and his career was over.

  He was over.

  “I believe in second chances.” Curt leaned forward, his hands on his desk. “Or, in your case, third or fourth chances. You had enormous talent. You couldn’t handle all the crap that went with it. It doesn’t have to mean your life is over. It simply means this isn’t the life for you.”

  He was an idiot. That was what Curt was saying. And Trev knew it. He was a dumbass. The only things he’d ever been good at were football and working a herd. His father’s herd was gone now because he’d gone off to play football and left his mom and sister with no one to work the ranch. It had been sold off to some organic co-op. There was nothing to go back to. He wanted to call his sister, but he couldn’t tell her how badly he’d fucked up.

  The papers would do that job for him. There would be no way Shelley didn’t find out, and she would be ashamed. She still lived in the tiny town they’d grown up in. They would give his sister hell, making her pay for his sins. He let his head fall to his hand.

  “If you say yes, you can be in Dallas tonight, beginning your treatment. You would have to stay for at least a year.”

  He looked up. “A year?”

  “I believe I mentioned this isn’t standard treatment.” Curt pressed a button on his desk. “You need to make a decision. This offer is only available for the next five minutes. If you don’t accept it, you’re on your own.”

  Anger threatened to shove aside the panic. The cage door was closing, and he wasn’t sure he could get out. “You have no right to do this to me.”

  “If I give you time to think about it, you’ll come up with a million ways out. I’m closing off all the exits. You can fix yourself, or you’ll have nothing. You’ll walk out of here and lose your house, your cars, all those fancy clothes. You’ll find solace in a bottle. You’ll drink all you can, and when that stops working, you’ll do whatever it takes to find that oblivion you seek. You’ll sell whatever you have left, including yourself. You’ll drink it, snort it, and when that doesn’t work, you’ll inject it. You’ll do it until one day you don’t wake up.”

  Trev could see it, the rest of his life laid out in a neat pattern. He would do everything Curt said. He would use until he died. He would try to find that place where nothing mattered and no one cared.

  He was going to kill himself. He was going to waste everything he’d been given, and he would never even know what it meant to really give a damn.

  What the hell did he want?

  “I’ll do it.” The words came out of his mouth, but they felt foreign.

  “See, that’s what I wanted to hear.” A new voice spoke from the corner of the room. Trev turned and saw what he hadn’t before. A man stood in the corner. He was roughly six foot four with dark hair that hit his shoulders. Despite his long, slightly curly hair, the man had a military bent that couldn’t be denied.

  “Who the fuck is that?”

  Curt smiled and held out his hand. “Meet Leo Meyer. He’s the man who’s going to fix you.”

  Leo Meyer nodded toward the door. “So, you ready to go? It’s a long way to Dallas.”

  What did he really have to pack? Some clothes? He would have to sell the house and everything in it. None of it mattered.

  “I can go now.”

  Trev stood and walked toward a man he didn’t know but hoped would show him the way home.

  He didn’t have anywhere else to go.

  * * * *

  Eighteen Months Later

  Deer Run, TX

  Bo O’Malley felt the smile come over his face as Mouse walked into the tiny church. She wore a gray skirt and white blouse. Both were too big for her. Her brown hair was pulled back in an old-lady bun, but she was still the sweetest sight he’d seen all day. It meant he wasn’t alone.

  No one else from town had shown up. Bastards.

  “Mouse.” He felt himself relax for the first time all morning. He never had to pretend with her. Of all the people he’d known in his life, Mouse Hobbes was the only one who had accepted him with a whole heart. Her father sto
od beside her, leaning heavily on his cane.

  She smiled shyly, but then everything she did had a shy quality to it. “Hi. We’re not late, are we?”

  Only Mouse would ask that question when it was blatantly obvious that one side of the church was empty. The groom’s side. Well, one of the grooms. Lucas had several coworkers and apparently he knew a whole security team. They were a fun, sarcastic group who’d take up most of the only motel in town. Lexi’s family and a few friends—including a scary, dark-haired dude in a suit who reminded Bo of a mobster—had come. But Aidan had almost no one. Certainly no one from here in Deer Run. Even the pastor had been imported from Dallas. Bo had heard the only way they had gotten the church was Jack Barnes’s generous contribution.

  He reached out and took her hand. Mouse’s hand wasn’t as soft as the hands of some of the women he’d dated. She worked hard. Strange then that he’d always liked holding hers. She was the sister he’d never had.

  Except that sometimes he thought about doing things to Mouse that he wouldn’t do to a sister.

  “No. You’re right on time. Lexi is almost ready.” Bo turned and greeted George Hobbes. He looked frail but dapper in his suit. The suit had probably been in his closet since the seventies. George Hobbes was what people in Deer Run called an “individual.” It was not necessarily a compliment. “Thanks so much for coming, George.”

  George held out his slender hand and shook Bo’s. “Anything for you, son. You always watch out for my girl.”

  Bo lightly gripped the hand in his. George was under a few mistaken impressions. He believed that Bo was dating Mouse. He wasn’t going to correct the man. Bo and Mouse had been friends since their junior year of high school when she had gotten him through chemistry. And algebra. And English. He had a high school diploma because Mouse hadn’t let him fail. He’d had a deep affection for her ever since.